The Renewal Journey

There are times when you know God has started working something in your life, and you're in a place of surrender, you're in a place of just allowing, and you thought it's all working out fine, until... you realised there's so much more to it and you've only taken the smallest step in a long journey.

Talk about the renewal of mind. Just when you thought you've grasped some truths and began to work it out, you realise you don't know anything at all...

I have been drawing some parallels between the Kingdom and working life. I am in a very interesting phase of life, and time is passing by so fast there isn't really time for me to understand and analyse everything, let alone making a summary of it. If you have ever been in an environment of grace and empowering in the world, you will be able to appreciate it; and not just appreciate, but hanging on to it unwaveringly, never letting go, never giving up, no matter what. And you'd perhaps make a pledge to say you will stick on no matter what happens, no matter how the future will turn out to be; you will defend it, protect it, perpetuate it.

But then it takes you by surprise that you aren't able to catch up. You aren't able to live out the Kingdom that you've supposed to have learned and grasped, and you start questioning yourself whether you have really understood what Kingdom mindset is all about, you start doubting if you are ever gracious to yourself, you start searching for that bit within yourself that supposedly has embedded the culture of honour... God always brings you to an end of yourself so that He can be at the starting line with you again. He messes up with what you thought you knew and tells you there's so much more. And He brings you to a place of realisation that "God, You are greater still. Ultimately, it is all about You. It's You I'll seek..."

Come fill this void in me with Your glory. I thirst and hunger for You, O Lord.